Shame

P1030780-shameI got scammed! So I said it aloud!

(They said that the first step is to admit it, and I did!)

Although even saying it out loud, it still doesn’t help why I felt shameful in my own thought or could stop beating myself inside.

That nagging war and self mutilating mentally for something happened to me that was out of my control, were there for quite a long while.

 I felt stupid. I felt anger. I felt useless. I felt helpless. I felt injustice. I felt robbed!

I owe all of these feelings, and I have to face up to them.

I have to forgive myself for being nice, kind, and trusting!

I have to stop beating myself up because I have no control over what other people do.

After owing up to my feelings and thoughts, the revenging wishes set in. Karma! I wanted so much for karma to take place to the person that robbed me out of $130 hard earned dollars!  I wanted him to suffer as much anguish and devastation as I have had.

It took lot of time for me to come to peace and offer that shame feeling to the universe.

I have done nothing wrong! I gave that guy the money to fix my bathroom because I believed he would do a good job, as he had before in the past. I will just allow what goes around, comes around and forgive myself for trusting people as one of the traits I have.

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About IcyBC

A simple person with a pragmatic soul!
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4 Responses to Shame

  1. I’m sorry you got scammed! I would be so mad!

  2. hardworkinjudy says:

    So sorry, Icy. It is very frustrating to pay for something and not get it!!

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